life.

Long Distance Relationships.

What does that even mean? A relationship is supposed to be when you’re really close to someone. I guess it’s logical to say that “it’s the distance between the two people physically, not in heart. In heart, it’s as if they’ve never been apart.” Yet my heart wants more. My heart wants you to be right here, and never ever leave. I want you to wrap your arms around me and tell me it’ll all be alright when I feel like hyperventilating or crying. I want to listen to your heartbeat in your chest as I fall asleep. I want to laugh to myself when you twitch in your sleep. But I guess God has other plans right now for the two of us and I guess that means being apart.

Maybe it’s a way of allowing us to grow and learn as individuals. College matures you. Within a semester of being on your own, you figure stuff out. You learn to make it on your own. You learn how to be an individual. You get to decide what life is - not your parents, not your friends, not your teachers… just you. The only downside is: it’s just you, you’re on your own a lot. When that loneliness sets in, it’s that moment when I have to decide to rely on God, because I am never alone. He never leaves me nor forsakes me. He hears me when I call even when I (admittedly) don’t call enough. I am relying on Him to get me through the intermittent loneliness and stress of college life.

In the end, there has to be a light at the end of this tunnel for you and me. There just has to be a light. Because something in me won’t let go of you. No matter how lonely I get, there’s no one that I would rather substitute for you. No one shines a candle to how you can instantly make me laugh even when I don’t want to smile.

“Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It’s for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It’s for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don’t see it nearly enough…”